Thursday, December 10, 2009 Y 11:30 PM
Heaven may be hidden in the clouds, but I see it every day, just by being with you.Feeling really terrible , coughing non-stop until i lost my voice .damn!I miss going out , i miss boyfriend so much :(& i still wanna watch his bball match .hope i recovers before sat , haha !So anws , woke up at 7:30am and head to clinic with my parents.felt alright all the while & suddenly i almost black out in the clinic , super sudden.nurse immediately brought the wheelchair for me .. & check my blood pressure.i got low blood pressure -.-my fever increase despite eating sooo much medicine .they brought me into a room so that i can rest there while a doc came to take my blood test .hate it man .now i have 2 plaster on my arm .. tmr there gonna be a third one.Anyways , i got dengue fever which currently have no medicine to cure.(why did i even bother to see a doctor then .)
and it got worse cause i'm also suffering from anorexia hence i do not have enough platelets(white blood cells) to fight against the bacteria ..
Normal healthy humans' platelets should be 170 ++
Ytd's my platelets was 110 & today decrease to 76 .the doctor said if it decreases to 50 and below .. they would be worry & i would be asked to stay in hospital for observation.but i told my mum that i will never stay in hospital because like the doctor said .. there isnt a cure right now..i will only be asked to drink more water & eat normal medicines everyday .why waste my time to stay in hospital -.-hahaha !the weirdest thing was that i'm not skinny enough to be consider an anorexia loh!!is like i still have not reach my ideal weight??& anorexia are people who are EXTREMELY underweight okay ..Am i extremely underweight?? NOOOO , i'm not even close .i'm like 49-50kg .. how is it even possible.shags ~the doctor wanted to put me under psychologist which i immediately decline !i'm not going to some stupid brainwash thing when i dont even feel i'm suffering from anorexia can .told the doctor i can handle myself and i would just come back for another blood test ..Oh wells , i just can wait to go out again . i feel soo lifeless now -.- sleeping almost everyday ..eating medicine every 6hr .. going back to clinic for blood test & checking my blood pressure.omg! i feel like i'm rly a patient la.tsk !!& i'm so gonna get fired from my work.Am waiting for boyfriend to reach home from his match & give me a call ..miss him so much.stay tune (:LOVES CAS ♥
Y 1:32 AM
Sick sick sick.
Been 2 days since i last blog .
got really sick on tuesday .. woke up at a temperature of 38.3 .
however , i went to change to meet boyfriend as i wanted to go watch his bball match .
My sick worsen in the end & had no choice but to head home after movie.
watched ' couples retreat'
ratings : 5 / 10
its wasnt very nice .. cause they had too much talking .
i even fall asleep in the cinema ! tsk .
At night , parents drove me to amk clinic as my fever rose to 38.8 .
Ate the medicine and when to sleep as i was feeling really really terrible.
However .. the medicine was not doing much help .. my fever continue to rose to 39.3 and today .. 39.8 degree .
had no choice but to go to tan tock seng hospital .
the doctor took my blood test , lung x-ray and heart test -.-
but their medicine was really very good , felt alot alot better after eating their medicine.
Hahaha ,
i suspected it was H1N1 however .. after checking the doctor said it might be dengue fever?
No idea yet .. have to go to another clinic tomorrow for another blood test .
was messaging dear all the way ..
& i thought he was going home after his match , however when i reach my doorsteps .
boyfriend was standing there !
i was super shock & happy .
Hahahha , he acc me till 11+ and headed home.
wanted to ask him to stay over for the night but he got work tmr . oh wells ~
Thanks dear .. Love you <3
just taken my medicine ..
will be going to sleep after this .
stay tune (:
LOVES CAS ♥
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 Y 1:09 AM
For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
Casting wasnt quite what i expected .
They had video camera and 2 interviewers infront of me , i was freak out the moment i entered the room ,
it felt so formal.
hahaha !
But of course i put on an act , first thing on my mind was to smile and shake their hands before i sit.
Knowing the video was right infront of me makes me uncomfortable ,
was wondering the whole time how do i look in the video ..
i totally didnt had that coming.
Introduce my 'fake' self to them , told them i was ultra socialable person who loves sports which was opposite.
I hate socialising , i hate sports , i hate sun , i had crowds.
what a good liar . hahaha !
hopefully i get this advertisment.
And i wonder what my boss's plan is for me ..
The lady boss asked me to put on heavy make up for one of the week as they want me to wear their designed clothes to do a photoshoot for me .
I am nervous , but but i love photoshooots :)
it always make me feel like a little princess when i do photoshoot.
haha!
After casting , went to eat with family ..
omg , i'm like so fat now !
i feel like i weigh 100kg?!
i have no idea why gigi's mummy would say i slim down & i should stop going on diet.
i feel that i have to fucking go on an heavy diet sooon .. i am so so so fat now.
tsk ~
Anyways , dear is going to the clinic tomorrow , guess i have to turn in early tonight so that i can
wake up early to acc him to the clinic.
Love this boy of mine so much :)
I'm sucha goood girlfriend hor? haha! ^^
No pictures cause like i said ... i feel fat :(
it lowered my confidences level in myself ..
stay tune (:
LOVES CAS ♥
Monday, December 7, 2009 Y 2:05 AM
Why keep your life on hold, for hope.
Okay , Just hung the phone with boyfriend.
Anyways , Got an OFF tomorrow & tuesday , so happy :)
Would be going for casting tomorrow for an sports ads , the rates they offered were quite attracting !
& i cant wait to watch 'Couple Retreat' on tuesday with boyfriend .
Anyways , sales has been as bad as zero sales per day .
sighs ~ but its really quite ever since 313 shopping center opened , guess it really affected the business alot .
On saturday , after work .. met up with boyfriend & friends to watch ' ZombieLand ' .
Ratings : 6 / 10
was quite full of rubbish -.- haha , but i guess its really funny tho .
days had been the same .. work work work , so nothing much to blog about.
stay tune (:
LOVES CAS ♥
Friday, December 4, 2009 Y 1:18 AM
We are growing up , what would we be like in 5 years time?
Worked till 4pm today , met up with swee ..
walked to far east to buy milk tea for dear & we walked all the way to his workplace.
imagine that , its like sooo far okay ?
Passed him the milk tea & we went outside to wait for him to finish work .
he loook so cute in his working outfit :)
After he & steven was dismiss from work , we headed to 313 shopping center .
not bad , quite big .
steven was shopping a jeans ..
walked around , swee and me left at 6:30 as we reserved steamboat at bugis at 7pm .
Chia came after work , and we ate till 10:30pm.
woah ?! hahaha . i ate alot man ... guess got to starve for the next 2 days :/
anyways , i'm working full shift tomorrow .. omgosh ~
After movie will be meeting boyfriend & friends for moviee :D
& did i mention that dear called me when i was working and say some japanese language to me ..
if translated .. it was ' Honey , I love you. ' how sweet right?
melt my heart straight away ♥
Wednesday
Met boyfriend and steven at cineleisure .
i reached so early and walked around cineleisure for 1 hr myself while waiting for them to finish work.
tsk ~
jialing came to find me & soon later .. boyfriend and steven came :)
wanted to watch movie but we realised we watched all the show.
hahaha ~
so we end up slacking at cine till 9+ and train home.
Pictures !
Taken on wednesday
before leaving house.
Look at how tired dear was.
lols ! poor thing.
and finally ... BOOOM *
Thursday
Taken before going to work.
cute little pen given by dear's sister .. doris.
he is so cute !
Steamboat!
wasted sheryl didn't join us !
Tiffany & Yuwen .
Us! Tiffany , Yuwen , Cas ♥
alrights , got to go bathe !
stay tune (:
LOVES CAS ♥
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 Y 2:35 AM
Time passes quickly when you are in love and you can never get enough of your love.
Okay , i'm blogging now cause i have absolutely nothing to do .
I'm planning to give a 2nd try & give boyfriend a morning call .
I failed the first time , tried to stay awake till 8am and i fell asleep at 7:30am .
imagine that ?!
haha , this time ... I'm not going to lie on my bed at all !!
Slept till 4pm today & when i wake up i saw 2 messages.
1 is from bff & another one is from boyfriend telling me how tired he is.
changed and head down to town to meet him .
& i find him really cute .. * decided not to say abt it , but this silly boy is like ultra cute today .
cant stop laughing .
went to his house & he told me he wont be sleeping.
so while he lie on his bed , i was using his hp and the next min .. he fell asleep -.-
could imagine how tired he was tho ..
cas : i go home first k , u go sleep .
dear : Dont leave me !
cas : i'm not leaving you.
sound so sweet right :)
Let him rest awhile & ltr he bathed and send me to the bus stop .
He playing pool at cineleisure.
Anyways , was suppose to go tawain this holiday , but its super EX !
so boyfriend and i were discussing about going to malaysia instead .
First trip with boyfriend & friends , im really excited .
going to watch 'The Hills' now.
stay tune (:
LOVES CAS ♥
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 Y 1:01 AM
Love... you always want more cause love leads to greed .
Yes baby , i want more love .Home !
Spent half of my day staying home watching ' Hi my sweetheart ep.5 ' & ' The Hills ' .
which i totally agrees when Heidi said that girls are born to be treated like a princess.
I wanna be treated like a princess ... humpf !
so , anyway .. thought i wouldnt be meeting boyfriend today , but he called at 7 .
so i rushed to change and head down to amk hub.
Boyfriend & friends were buying movie tickets.
caught the movie ' Ninja Assassin '
Ratings : 7.5 / 10
I find it quite awesome cause i'm a girl who LOOOOVEES bloody scene & horror movies.
Hate girls who keeps screaming in the theater .
Guess i'm alittle different from other girls?
I like to watch gore movies.
Anyway , i find rain's body figure really awesome.
but its alittle toooo macho for me , hopes boyfriend wouldn't think about training his body into that size.
I love guys with muscle but not over muscular .. they will seems to be a very rough guy & looks really scary to me .
after movie , home sweet home.
boyfriend will be starting work tmr ,
& this silly guy thinks i will get paranoid with him working in those environment where there's girls .
Hahahas , i wont.
As long as he loves me , i need not get worry about it :)
Good luck for ur first day of work tomorrow k dear ?
Love you ! ♥
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He got 1st for daytona once again :)
RLC = Raymond Loves Casandra .
stay tune (:
LOVES CAS ♥
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